Finding Jessica

So I will turn to the place we all should, no matter the religion or degree of spirituality, you have a book, or a chant, or a prayer you can use. Or a wish, or a litany.

I should be working, so I will put my book here, so that I may free my mind for another hour, another minute...free my heart from things I want but cannot have, have but do not want, want but cannot reach. Today. For now.

1 Corinthians 13 from the NIV
One of my favorites...


1 If I speak in the tongues[a] of men or of angels, but do not have love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. 2 If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. 3 If I give all I possess to the poor and give over my body to hardship that I may boast,[b] but do not have love, I gain nothing.

4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

8 Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. 9 For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10 but when completeness comes, what is in part disappears. 11 When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put the ways of childhood behind me. 12 For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

13 And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

An actually touching chain e-mail I got at work today...pictures to come later


The wedding.




Her name is Katie Kirkpatrick, 21 yrs old. Next to her is her fiancé, Nick, 23. This picture was taken prior to their wedding January 11th, 2005. Katie has terminal cancer and spends hours in chemotherapy. Here Nick awaits while she finishes one of the sessions...







Even in pain and dealing with her organs shutting down, with the help of morphine, Katie took care of every single part of the wedding planning. Her dress had to be adjusted several times due to Katie 's constant weight loss.







An expected guest was her oxygen tank. Katie had to use it during the ceremony and reception. The other couple in this picture is Nick's parents, very emotional with the wedding and to see their son marrying the girl he fell in love when he was an adolescent.







Katie, in a wheel chair listening to her husband and friends singing to her.





In the middle of the party, Katie had to rest for a bit and catch her breath. The pain does not allow her to stand for long period of time.



Katie died 5 days after her wedding. To see a fragile woman dress as bride with a beautiful smile makes you think... Happiness is always there within reach, no matter how long it lasts. Lets enjoy life and don't live a complicated life. Life is too short.

Work as if it was your first day. Forgive as soon as possible.



Love without boundaries. Laugh without control and never stop smiling. Please pray for those suffering from cancer.

Keep this going.

This I think is the funniest one os all...omg...Adell you will love this, Lena don't freak, and somebody call Tasha and tell her to watch!!!!

So...does your pee ever smell like that cereal, Smacks? Well, I guess the name is longer than that, hold please..............



Okay, so NOW I think you know what I mean, lol.

Well, sometimes my pee smells like this weird-as-crap cereal...does that mean there is to much sugar in it??? That would surely explain the extra 15 pounds I'm carrying around here...I mean, sometimes its another cereal, like honey nut chereos, but usually this one...any one else out there with that problem...?!

I dunno, maybe I'm crazy, but this totally wasn't the first time. I hope people read this one. And like, agree or disagree. Not that I'm into pee or anything. NO. Seriously, not. Not even a little. Not even really when its in a toilet...but it should stay there until flushed. Period.

But Smacks, though? Any thoughts on that one?!

Okay, done being weird, gonna pretend to work now.

Oh, and this one is pretty funny. (look down...not at your crotch, at the picture below, duh)

The funniest freakin thing I've come across by accident on youtube...seriously...

Lizzy the Lezzy

(embedding coming soon)

...hard. ANd actually working hard!

Thoughts keep creeping up though...I can't help missing someone I never had...and now they're so far away...its hard to see good friends go, I guess.

The JERK cut the check(s) on 9/10 and decided there was no reason to tell me both this and the fact that he sent them to the OFFICE!!! What kind of idiot-man-boy...well, the point is that I know have my money, and he can go and stick a rusted-barbed-wire vibrator where the sun don't shine and let the door hit him where the good Lord split him while he's at it.

You know, its amazing how some people believe that one good act followed by many stupid bad ones makes them just an all-around amazing wonderful and helpful person...and that makes anyone that's not them ungrateful. Well guess what...? Guess what Travis Lewis? I am extremely ungrateful for all of the stress, headache, and general unhappiness that working with your sketchy company has brought me. No wonder your office is currently almost entirely made up of brand-spanking-new or borrowed employees...and why your own liasons don't want to touch you with a 10-foot pole...but I pray for those at your fiscal mercy, and for their sanity, and your peace of mind.

WELL, ahhhh! Now that that's all taken care of...! Can't wait to tackle that payroll in the morning! Gotta get a good night's sleep! Want to have everything done for the return of my bosses on thursday...OH! And I cannot forget to

wordpress is stupid, but here's my latest and greatest...I'm trudging on only to say I did, not because I'm beginning to like it. Can you believe it costs $15/year to really personalize your page?! Absurdity! Oh, and the coding is wayyyy harder than this! At least HTML makes sense when you think it does, and doesn't trick you in to thinking that you've got it all figured out!!!!