Finding Jessica

It is really best to find books with character, history, and life yet to give at the flea market. And so cheap! Four cookbooks for $5! Maybe the journey begins.

My my my! How it does fly...I'm already 23 years old. I still look under 18, I haven't graduated college yet (hey, don't judge me, LIFE HAPPENS!) and I'm living alone (mostly...I don't think Magic or Marco count, ha ha) and car-less and well short on lots of things.

Where did we imagine ourselves today ten years ago? Where are our friends and loved ones?

Well, wedding pictures of Mom and Donald coming soon, I always seem to forget the camera to load the pictures, lol. Can anyone tell how hard it is for me to hold a thought? lol

Well, there was supposed to be a purpose to this post...hmmm...life is going I suppose, we'll see about how well it is going. Hopefully I will not have to take my now previous employer to court but we shall see there...and hopefully I will have my full rent...whatever that is...before the 10th...and hopefully I will have an interview ASAP because that would be VERY VERY nice, would it not? Hopefully the jerk who totaled my car (or his insurance) will be forced to pay out the behind for ruining my 2010, then i will finally be able to get a new car (hopefully).

Hmmm...word of the day... H O P E F U L L Y

HOPEFULLY Lena's wedding will become something to make her smile
HOPEFULLY Adell's relationship will be everything she believes it is and wants it to be
HOPEFULLY I will figure out my relationship path and get married and make babies BEFORE my ovaries shrivel up and die (j/k...kinda)
HOPEFULLY everything works out financially...soon
HOPEFULLY the lawsuit is over soon and I can resume my life and future

HOPEFULLY HOPEFULLY HOPEFULLY HOPEFULLY HOPEFULLY HOPEFULLY HOPEFULLY HOPEFULLY HOPEFULLY HOPEFULLY HOPEFULLY HOPEFULLY HOPEFULLY HOPEFULLY HOPEFULLY HOPEFULLY

Hope is a powerful thing...right?

It seems I have very little control over my life right now. The job market is a dud, I never filled out the FAFSA (silly chit, I know) so I have not a way to pay for school right now, nor do I have a vehicle to speak of. My mother was just married (¡felicitaciones!) and my best friend Lena is soon to follow…I’m glad she’s finally getting what she wants, in spite of her future monster-in-law…

Well, I hear my lawyer is putting through the request to the insurance company, I hope he still did his best, I have been keeping terrible contact with him due to, well…stress, a lack of internet at times, and just a lack of time or anything to say. My life still sucks, my back still sucks, and I think I eat even more than ever…I’ve gained 15 pounds reaching a number I never imagined possible! Well, before getting married and complacent and pregnant at least!

Enough about me…well, not really. It IS a blog about “finding Jessica”…well I happen to be at home in my apartment right now, with Magic and Marco and far too many thoughts and not enough channels, lol.

I think I just finished the first bouquet for the bridesmaids, but we shall see what will be done tomorrow, so I’m trying to keep my hands and poor little brain occupied so that I don’t accidentally fall into an abyss of the brain…I should probably put in a comedy of some sort.

So…my weight goal by October 30th (Lena’s wedding) is to weigh 110-112 lbs.

I will finish putting away my crap before Monday (the 6th of September…geeze where has this year gone?!)

I will finish putting in applications…any suggestions in the Triangle/RTP/Raleigh area let me know!

And I will start a project…after watching Julie & Julia I’m intrigued…would it work? What would it take? What should I do? I almost want to find Julia Childs’ cookbook and cook my way through it…it would take serious time and money, but…why not? I’ve never liked French food (besides French fries, ha ha) maybe it would change my mind…
Or maybe I could work my way through a healthy one to help control my little piggy appetite…or a Paula Dean one…or a foreign one since I do love to cook foreign foods…Turkish and Chilean and Dominican…so many possibilities…and so much food!

Hmmm…I suppose I should start a new blog for that one…and force friends to come over often to eat the food! I do live alone, and a fresh meal every day…I would need either a cookbook with fewer than 365 recipes or promises from friends to eat the food! I think I keep repeating that line…ha ha ha.

Well, all for now I suppose…

Mommy is getting hitched, whoooo! And I'm back int he search.....as well as neeeding $$$!!!

Oh, and sorry sweet spiky baby for getting frustrated with you sometimes...I love you.

The lair of the lotus eaters...fascinating story. Sometimes being in a euphoria-induced trance sounds wonderful...no worries forever. Just fun and food. . . . .

MAN! SO much has so much to do with time, right???

Such as right now, I will take the time to nap, maybe go ahead and get my hair done so that there is a good lag between the coloring process and doing it for mommy's wedding...

Then there is the TIME that needs to be put aside for mommy and the wedding itself...time to make her feel like the beautiful woman that she is and be sure that she knows that this special day is ALL ABOUT HER...

There is the time that needs to be spent working, can I get an amen???

There is the time needed to be spent with loved ones and four-legged things, bless their little catty and doggie souls...

There is the time needed for oneself...the time needed to consider how to tell someone something important...

Time needed to become yourself again! Eat right, work out, get that ideal (or old) body condition back, feel like yourself again, get the hairs and the nails and the feet and the legs and the face done...

WHERE DOES THE TIME GO?!?!

where do we go? where do we go when we need time? isn't time money?? don't we need time? but to have time we're wasting money? or making it? or to get time we need to make money which takes time, right????

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Hahahaha, excuse my foreign talk, lmfmao, (that was an asian joke bud!)

Ahhhhh....nap time. Maybe I'll better to knowing what to doing with the rest of the times after my brains get the naps.

whaaa...?

There is just so gosh darn much of it. And I always want more. Well, let's get things moving and shaking! Oh, and get my freakin' life together too! Haha, the Cinderella with Brandi and Whitney Houston in it is perfect to go to sleep to, which I'm about to do so that I can get up early, avoid eviction with the help of my mother (thank you very much...oh, and its called paying rent, lol) and get some homework done in the form of lots of writing. Maybe walk the dog (far) if the sun is obliging (gone/not hot/not working)...oh, and finally finish unpacking what I can, seeing as how I need bookshelves to really put away the rest of the boxes...so many books...so many more that I don't have yet...OKAY, I'm going to sleep now.

I can't wait until this is a travel diary again. I guess that will have to wait until I find a new job. :-/

Why doesn't blogger have a smiley add-in deal? So useful...

Oh, and cute picture of 3/4 monkeys at Tasha's baby shower weekend in Maryland

So much is going on right now, and yet, right now, my heart is managing to be light, so I will refuse to weigh it down anymore tonight.

*Someone should find a cure for apthous ulcers*

A kiss is a lovely trick designed by nature to stop speech when words become superfluous.
Ingrid Bergman