Finding Jessica

Today is the 30th, I'm baking pumpkin bread and waiting for my girls to arrive so we can exchange presents and be crazy girls together for the night.

Wondering what a new year alone will bring me...where I'll get, what I'll achieve...what will happen with us...

Wondering what mischief we'll get into tomorrow night...that I'll regret at 10am at work on the 1st...stupid schedule...blessed time and a half...

Thinking that I hope he realizes...well...what I said stands, for now.

Wondering if I can pull off this semester...and if I can survive until january 11th.

Waiting for the new year. And friends. Where the heck are they?!

...mothers are a blessing knowingly disguised by God...

thank you, I love you Mommy.

So, my addiction to the Sorority Life application on facebooky is complete...but not unconquerable...HOWEVER, I have sucked in my roomie, and in one day she is about to become more powerful, influential, and higher level than me!!!!???!!!

Dreams...crazy stuff going on in my head at night...

I can't wait until the new year...specifically, I cannot wait until my financial woos are over...until then...these will be (unfortunately, since I love to pamper my lovies) a frugal christmas...and I need to stop being such a freakin' fatty...and make lots of phone calls and order my freakin funds...

personal reminder list:
$17
$70...call, print, send!
$40ish br (¿o más?)
$50ish demamá
-$90
-$366

makes for some terrible math, right? lol, no explanation here, that's why its a personal list! LOL

Got...and...for delly, ...and ohhh for her (so gotta...yeah) and...and...for k...and will get on treinta for...ok. well...that makes the hours I have right now at work REALLY important!!!!!

Geeze..all I want for christmas is $$$...only that's not entirely true, sooo...?

Oh well, gotta take my behind to bed. Happy christmas holidays people...

I need to work out too...and wash clothes...and clean...hair...nails...straighten...


OMG...I can't do this. Can I?

SO, I'm officially DONE for the semester! Also turns out that I did get my commission, but it was so measly and hours so bad...well, I'm sure you get it. The stress levels during the semester ensured I wouldn't be totally thrilled with my grades, not that I failed anything, but passing isn't really my only goal here. Just means I've got to have a hell of a semester next one (AND I WILL!!!) and eliminate a few huge sources of stress and anxiety...only problem is the eliminating part...anyways, looking forward to the holidays, though I'm FLAT BROKE, and cannot believe that Christmas is one week from tomorrow!!! Well, Felíz Navidad people, prospero año y feliz edad, and all that other jazz (I wanna miss you a merry Christmas, the parts people don't really know what its saying!). Guess I'll just focus on being happy and not too worried over anything while I can...

SOOO...apparently I'm going to have to call and see where the rest of my PAYCHECK is because I've been waiting MONTHS for my payout!!! I kinda NEED the money right now...hard times have befallen the almost graduate...oh GOD I need some help...if I can just survive and keep them at bay until January 11th...goodness, that's almost halfway through the month?!??!!! Well, at least come march I'll have a break from a foreseen stressful semester...shame it won't be during my 23rd though, guess mama will get to enjoy me then...maybe...you know, for a time, around a night of craziness with friends!


Oh! Btw, did you know that you can donate hair clippings and such to make hair mats to clean up oil spills??? You can donate as an individual or as a company or hair salon...pretty cool and useful purpose for icky cut hair!

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Take a breath, take it deep
Calm yourself, he says to me
If you play, you play for keeps
Take a gun, and count to three
I’m sweating now, moving slow
No time to think, my turn to go

Say a prayer to yourself
He says close your eyes
Sometimes it helps
And then I get a scary thought
That he’s here means he’s never lost

As my life flashes before my eyes
I’m wondering will I ever see another sunrise?
So many won’t get the chance to say goodbye
But it’s too late too pick up the value of my life

I have a new one. Sorority Life on facebook. And getting back into working out...SWEET...virtual shopping since I can't afford the real thing!

When I get paid...

This bible from Barnes and Noble booksellers and this gift bible


For Christmas...

This jewelry set from Made With Molecules, I used to have it

For life...

A fulfillment of this scripture: Ephesians 5:25-33

Sooo...

Lena- I think she needs to hurry up and get married and get pregnant...not necessarily in that order

Adell- I didn't expect him to be a real man, considering his height and all, but I'm still dissapointed...and I know you're not done dealing with it either, so I hope you know that too.

Tasha- are you getting fat yet? boy or girl?!

Me- so I got the monkey's covered...myself...I've turned in two papers, taken two exams...I probably won't even look at my grades until next semester, I'm just that scared...and I still have two more papers and a presentation to prepare this weekend between working 6 or more hours every day between now and when they're due...yikes!

On another note...financially speaking, hopefully this paycheck will be fantastic, and I have a very complicated get the immediate bills paid strategy...I hate when life gets like this, and holds you by your ankles upside down while shaking you and watching all of your change fall down the drain...laughing...

But everything will be FINE, even if its not until january, and my new finanacial partial freedom steps in (for the last time, pouty face) and I finally begin to make something for myself before my *future* arrives and I go out into the real world to find a job befitting one of my two degress-in-progress before graduation in may of 2010. In a new place with new digs...at least my red car will be paid off...anyone need to buy a car? Red Pontiac Grand Am, '99 or '01, I can never seem to remember, but its got the ridged body that belongs to only those two years...anyways...

Other than the coming stress of the weekend and actually delivering the presentation (oral, 10 minutes, etc.) and the debilitating state of my apartment...well, the day of my final I'm doing a full purge and cleanse...body, mind, money, apartment, body...so I suppose, all will be well this coming week, as well as it can get before the new year. I can't wait to see my family for the holidays!

Entonces, yo voy a explorar mis opciones de vida...de toda mi vida...

...for you tree-hugger rhythm and such method types out there, here are a few things I learned in my History of Ancient Medieval Science class...

• Ferula- also know as the giant fennel, has yellow flowers but is a scrub; found in semi-arid regions on hillsides and stony slopes; contraceptive and early-term abortifacient; Ferula opopanax Spr. (silphion, very effective version, but unfortunately now extinct); emmenagogue (menstrual stimulant)

• Pomegranate (yep, that's right!)- oral contraceptive and vaginal suppository, (Punica granatum L.), the seeds and peel or rind have contraceptive properties; 72% effective in rats, 100% in guinea pigs, does not affect fertility

• Juniper- "Gossip records a miracle", states Pliny the Elder: "that to rub it [crushed juniper berries] all over the male part before coitus prevents conception". Crushed juniper berries could also be placed on the vulva prior to coitus as a contraceptive. Two species are referred to as both a contraceptive drug and an abortifacient. Also about 60% effective orally (extract of the root)

• Rue- an evergreen perennial with yellow to yellow-greenish flower, plants emit a powerful stinky odor; contains philocarpine, a substance given to horses to induce abortion; a traditional abortifacient amond hispanics in New Mexico and used as a tea for abortive purposes throughout Latin America; should be avoided if pregnant due to emmenagogic properties; a similar plant in the same family has potential as a post-coital interceptor (Murraya paniculata/var. M.sapientum L., called yuehchukene)

• Pennyroyal- was used both as a contraceptive and an abortifacient, emmenagogue; steeped in tepid water, soaked in wine; there has been a known death in 1978 from a (stupid) young girl taking pennyroyal oil to induce an abortion...not recommended; cannot be legally sold in the US as a drug

• Squirting Cucumber- (Ecballium elaterium L.) looks rather like the normal garden cucumber, but has no tendrils; the name derives from the fact that when its fruit dries it squirts out its seeds; good as "an abortive suppository for the uterus"; contraceptive not abortifacient, impedes ovulation

• Queen Anne's Lace- (also known as a wild carrot or daucus) has a reddish, slender, and strongly aromatic root with stems about two feet high; can be found in the Appalchian Mountains of North Carolina in the autumn; after coitus, a woman taking a spoonful of the seeds in a glass of water is confident that she will not conceive

Cops, anyone?

First crazy...



Second crazy...

I really love this movie! I need to find the scenes with the little dirty man Robert DeNiro sells his lightening to...and later quacks! Sooo funny that gross guy!

Well, here's DeNiro in a dress!!!

...concerning the possibility of Salvador Allende winning the 1970 presidential election in Chile..

"One in 10 chance perhaps, but save Chile!
worth spending
not concerned with risks involved
no involvement of Embassy
$10,000,000 available, more if necessary
full time job- best men we have
game plan
make the economy scream
48 hours for plan of action"

(notes taken by CIA Director Richard Helms at a September 15 emergency White House meeting...that reflects the "tenor" and the President's instructions)

Interesting, but we can't help ourselves?

by Jessica, Adell, Lena . . . for the dirty girl on facebookky . . . some girls just don't learn!

Thank you, thank you...no applause!

You are sofa king we todd it.

Say it aloud three times fast. Ha ha.

i can do this
i can do this
i can do this
i can do this
i can do this

can't i?

of course i can...

i just need to FOCUS!!!

IT'S GONE. I can't believe it, I saw it yesterday, but IT'S GONE. Why did Carlyle & Co. have to sell out to a company that was slowly and secretly tanking?! And took them WITH IT! PORQUÉ?!? Now I'll have to find a close substitute...oh my life...

BTW...still have TONS of work and studying to do on those papers and have FOUR finals THIS WEEK...yay.

I wish it were a scoop of ice cream...mmmmm....from Cold Stone Creamery... my all-time favorite (cake batter ice cream with caramel, almonds, cookie dough, and sugar cone mixed in....mmmmmmMMMMM!!!

Any ways...haven't been online much lately, and won't be except for finding sources for my THOUSANDS of papers and such...at the library...because internet at the house isn't too much of an option right now...  :-(   

Oh well, life sucks, just gotta let it roll. But I'll get this crap done, and when I FINALLY get my commission from my job (finger crossed desperately) I will be able to afford EVERYTHING (well, the stuff I've been wanting and missing out on at least :-)

Everything electronic in my life seems to have a vendetta out on me...

and one of my besties (a skinny monkey, perhaps?) seems to be trying to make one of my dreams come true...i love you...(tear drop)

omg omg omg...welll...i guess I'm about to load up some books and get on home...well...on to picking up my friend from work then taking her home then home! oh well, story of my life, really. :-)  I'll make it, promise. Until then.....

Go Harry Potter. www.jkrowling.com